mr.RINDU :)

bebeh ijad jujur :')

skg bru ky dpt tauk, upanya slmane ijad uji kiky sedja. . ijad ckp kn dlu ijad jujur dak bhagia n dak sayang ma ky suda. . mybe dya bwt gtoe maw tgk, sberapa mna ky tahan nan ijad n setia nan ijad. . n ijad kali maw tgk, sma ada kiky akan sebut perkataan B********* tu ka lg taw ndk. .trnyata ky lulus ujian ijad. . kiky dakda pn pena sbut pkataan tu lg n ky dak prna tpikir pn mw lpas kn bebeh ijad. . dlm hati kyy,biar lh law ijad dak syg n cinta lg ma kiky. . kiky akan truss brusaha n bertahan spaya bwt bebeh ijad syg blk nan kiky. . then, ijad pn wechat ky, ijad blg " By tipu ngn syg .. Sbnrnya by syg ngn syg sgat2 .. Cuma by kadang kurang ambil berat ngn syg.. Jujur by syg ngn syg, By xmau kehilangn syg.. D sini by xpena pn trpikir mau curang.. Cuma by ni dk minat mau btepon lama2.. I love u syg.. Mimpi by.." unduk sayang by :'* .. bru ky taw dr hati ijad yg dlm upa'y dya syg btl nan ky n tkut btl khilangan ky. . kali ne ky btl2 serius da nan bebeh ijad, ky dakmoh mungkir janjy lg, ky akn buktikan nan ijad yg ky dak kn pena tgl kn ijad lg smpai ky mati. .ky dakmaw sia2 kn ijad lg, lpas ky suda tw yg bebeh ijad syg n cinta nan ky tulus nan ikhlas. . ky maw hargai ijad. . ky maw jga ijad baik2. .jn smpi d ambl urg bebeh ky ne. ."bebeh, syg saaaayaangg sma by sgt2. . plz syg merayu, jn pena lepas kn syg. . n jn pena tpikir lg yg syg akan lepas kn by. . syg janji dakkn prnah tgl kn by lg, kali ne syg btl2 da nan hbungan kta ne, syg maw kta kc kekal yah sayang. ." now up to u la by maw pcaya ma syg atw tdk. .tp sjujurnya, syg cinta n sayang btul da ma by ne, syg dakmoh hancur kn harapan by lg ma syg. .syg dakmaw bwt by berhenti berharap ma syg lg n brenti mencintai n menyayangi syg, mybe msty dlm ati by ckp jiwang nya juak ayat2 syg ne smua poyo. . tp sbenarnya ne bkn d bwt2, smua yg syg type ne kluar dr hati syg, bkn dr pkiran kpala otak syg. .baaa, last syg maw ckp *jangan ada dusta diantara kita* hee~ setia lh dgn syg, syg percaya kn by, ,tlg jgn ilang kn kpercayaan syg sma by yah bebeh. .syg pn akn salu setia sma by, tiada yg lain slain by,cuma ada by d hati syg. syg tetap akan tggu by law pn ta bejauhan yank :'* .. mmg payah bah org blg kn maw kekal law #cinta jarak jauh# tp syg maw buktikan sma smua org, apa yg drg pkir kn smua tuh salah. . dr kta jak bh tuh kn yank. .drg pkir negatif jak sma org jauh, tp jn rsaw syg dak prnh dgr ckp org,i trust u bebeh. .bkn drg yg tentu kn sjauh ma kekal hbungan kta kn yank, bdoa jak lh bnyk2, yakin jak yg syg ne jodoh by. . tuhan cipta kn syg utk d satukan sma by. . amin. . smua nya suda d tenti kn oleh Allah dan ktentuan takdir. . . izaaz rifqi, kiky syg ijad. .emmmuuuaaahh :'* .. ,misheuw bebeh, syg rindu nan by sgt2. .k la jga diri by utk syg. .jn pena lupa syg ya yank. .jn nkal2 sna. .sentiasa igt janji kta. . "jgan pernah berpisah" even kta jauh d mata tp ttap dkt hati. . bye sayang. . xoxo bebeh kiky your future wife ;*

about us :'(

wed, 24/04/13. . hari ne, ary jujur utk ky nan ijad, .mmg juak akhir2 ne ky dpt rasa bh mcm tiada ne sua prasaan syg antara kmi,ne smua pasal kmi salu gaduh, ne lh yg mnyebabkan kmi jd ne, , jd td ne ky tnyk ma ijad. .ky blg "by bahagia kh juak coukpe nan syg? " then ijad pn jwb nan "jujur endak" ky pn pas dgr jwapan tuh, ky sedih n kecewa btl n mcm sma.sua apa yg ijad rasa nan apa yg ky rasa ne. .sbenarnya smua sala ky, ky mngaku, kmi sua jnjy yg kmi dak kn pernah sebut perkataan "BR***" ,tp ky berkali kali da sbut prkataan uh. . n ijad pn bnyk kali sua ngy ky pluang, tp kali ne ijad btl2 kecewa n dak bhagia sia nan ky, ijad blg dak maw bharap btl da sbb tkut d tgl kn lg, tp ijad blglaw pn dya mcm tiada sua prasaan syg ma ky n law pn dya sua brusaha utk syg ky blk tp ttap juak dak ble, tp hati kecilnya ckp susa n dak ble dya maw lepas ln ky, bgtu lh juak yg ky rasa skrg, law pn ky rasa sakit n kecewa dgn jwapan jujur ijad tuh tp ky susa n dak ble maw lpas kn dya. .ijad blg maw taw npa bgtu, sbb hati kecil ckp mc ada syg ckt. . to pasal lh bgtu. . ky mnyesal btul bwt ijad bgtu, ky pn daktaw cmna maw ambil hati nya balik mcm dlu, ,ijad.blg mulai besok bwt cm.biasa jak, say gud mowning n nite cm besa. . tp skrg masing2 prlukan waktu utk sendri n tenangkan pkiran :'( ,ijad blg dya dak maw besok ky tiada kol atw msg dya, anggap jak like nothings happen. . dya maw kmi bwt cm kbiasaan hari2 biasa. . ky bdoa, mudah-mudahan hati kmi bdua dpt sembuh dr sakit hati n kecewa. . amin~

tomorro is our frst annvrsary for one year :')

hye dear blogger :') , bisuk tepat jam 12 mlm ne, 18/04/13. .ckup stahun da hbungn ky nan ijad, tp ky dak taw msty brasa gembira atw pn bersedih, sbb akhir2 ne hbungn ky nan ijad dak brapa baik, its complicated bah. . hope so pas ne hbungn btmbah baik, ky syg btl nan ijad, . susa ky mw lpas kn iijad ne sbb ky maw ijad la lelaki terakhir dlm hdup ky yg akan mnjadi pendamping hdup ky one day soon, insyaAllah. . amin ~ :'( ckup smpai cne jak lh ky meluah, n for my beloved hubby : by syg mtk maf, smua sala syg, plz jn la dak layan syg tlmpaw lma, sakit by, sakit :'( , syg maw hbungn kta btmbah baik, msra cm dulu, syg sayang sma by sgt2 tlg jgn lpas kn syg. . lw pn mybe by dak igt hari bersejarah ne, its ok by, papap pn syg bersyukur sbb dpt btahan lma ngn by, by lh lelaki yg plg lma hdup nan syg, kta harungi smua dugaan tuhan dgn kuat, law pn syg jahat, syg dak dpt bntu by, ada sbb, law pn skg by pandang negatif da ma syg n pjir syg ne dak prnah maw susa senang sma2 by, syg dak kisah, sb by lum taw kesusahan syg d sni, n kbenaran nya, dak pah lh law by maw judge syg bgtu :'( , n law pn mulai skg by lbh pntg kn kwn dr syg, fine. . syg trima apa adanya, law pn tpksa pendam dlm hati, syg dak kisah, yg pntg syg mc ada hbungn sma org yg syg cinta n syg ne, last syg maw ckp by, hpy annyvrsary gor one year syg :') , syg hrap hbungn kta akan bekekalan smpai bila2. . amin ~maf kn smua kesalahan syg, syg jnjy akan jd yg terbaik utk by, . iloveyou so much syg. . syg sayang nan by sgt2, dak kn prnah terdetik pn d hati syg utk cri pengganti by, bgy syg, by ckup sempurna da, syg bersyukur dpt lelaki cm by. .jn mara lma2 yh syg :'( , imissyou so much by. . bye

konflik ' konflik :'(

assalamualaikum bloggerlioushz ,, ky maw curhat ne , ky pn ndataw maw bwat apa da .. ijad dak jd blik bulan 6 ne , raya bru blik maybe , pastu sminggu jak cutinya .. :'( n then yg bkin sedih law , ijad d sna tuh banyak jak masalahnya , bnyk kali da ilang usin nya buhh , , bru tuh asal ky maw btao umi nya , dia blg 'try lh btao umi , dakkan perna da by layan syg tuh' :'( .ijad ne kn jenis yg dak sukak menyusahkan org tuak bah ,biar lh dya susah2 sendri , mybe bgtu yg dya maw kali .. pastu post d fb btao 1 dunia , tiada satu pn yg memahami dya , cmna org maw phm law dak maw kta btao umi , cuak btao umi , law pn umi akan marah tp umi msty akan bantu juak anaknya dlm kesusahan tuh , ibu mna yg dak syg kn anak , law pn dya mara2 nt , msty d lubuk hatinya yg kecil ada rasa simpati n kesian juak tuh dgn nasib anaknya d sna .. ijad susa maw dgr ckp bah , ntah lh cmna maw tlg suda .. hurmm =,=' , yg umi d tawau ne tauk anak nya ijad d selangor sna , baik2 sedja , teda masalah , idup cm besa , n yg umi taw ijad d sna bljar , nothing happen bah umi pikir .. jd skrg gara2 problem ijad ne , ijad 2 hari suda ndada mud n mls maw layan ky , mcm smalam ok2 juak sua dya , ky kc hpy2 , ky menyanyi lh lgu kesukaan nya , tp td pgy , MOODY lg blik .. ndada lae mud maw mlayan , blik2 org kol n text nda d lyan , ky ugut dya maw btao umi , bru dya maw blas msg ky :'/ then last skali ijad ckp , "bgy lh by rehat yah yank" bah mcm lembut2 juak hatinya .. jd ky pn jwb "yala2x" .. so mlm ne tiada lh say gud nyte .. sedeh bah ky , ky rndu bah ma ijad taw .. "ya ALLAH tlg lh ijad yg kesusahan d sna tuh ya Allah ,,smoga dia dpt menempuhi smua dugaan mu ituh" amin~ ijad yg ada masalah , tp ky pulak yg sakit skrg ne , cam maw demam , sakit kpalak bah .. hurmm .. k la ky pn puas da meluah d schakiky wonderland ne , skg ky pn maw tenangkan pikiran lh juak .. gud nyte kamu :'( . .

JUST GIVE ME A REASON

Right from the start You were a thief you stole my heart And I your willing victim I let you see the parts of me That weren't all that pretty And with every touch you fixed them Now you've been talking in your sleep Things you never say to me Tell me that you've had enough Of our love, our love Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again Im sorry I don't understand where all of this is coming from I thought that we were fine Oh we had everything Your head is running wild again My dear we still have everything And its all in your mind Yeah but this is happening You've been having real bad dreams Oh oh You used to lie so close to me Oh oh There's nothing more than empty sheets Between out love, our love, oh our love, our love Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again I never stopped You're still written in the scars on my heart Your not broken just bent and we can learn to love again Oh tears ducts and rust I'll fix it for us We're collecting dust but our love's enough You're holding it in You're pouring a drink No nothing is as bad as it seems We'll come clean Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again

think about our future :'D so touching u knoe ;3

ne beby kmi ,, hee cute rite ? mukak ijad bh kan ? hee teda mukak ky ,. td kn ky on call wif my darling izaaz bah , jd ntah lh npa tetiba crita psal masa dpan n jodoh ne ,.. ijad says "law di takdir kn kta ne bkn jodoh , tpksa trima knyataan jak lh , tp law mmg suda d takdir kn mmg syg lh jodoh by , syukur lh " .. then ijad tnyk me , "law syg plak apa pndapat syg ?? " then me pn jwb lh " lw d takdir kn kta bkn jodoh , syg mls da maw crik yg lain , pnat da syg maw bermain perasaan SAYANG & CINTA ne , pdulik lh , biar lh jodoh kluarga jak " then ijad ckp lg " tp law kta ndk sma2 da ? by d takdir kn utk org lain , amacam ? " me pn jwb lh " law syg kn , slagi by mc hidup dan bernyawa , syg mybe mc ble trima hakikat lg law pn by tgl kn syg utk org lain , tp syg punya hati ckp , mc ada harapan lg utk syg dpt kn by blk , syg akan trus berharap n brharap , law pn syg taw yg by dak kn maw blk ma syg , dak kisah lh , tp law by sudah TIADA a.k.a TIDAK BERNYAWA suda , bru lh syg dak ble trima kenyataan n dak ble trima hakikat , sbb syg dak ble dpt kn by blk da , tpksa lh brenti bhrap law gtu , sedeh" :'( (ky kluarkn air mata) bgtu lh critanya , kta hanya mampu berdoa , biar TUHAN yang menentukan suratan takdir tuh smua .. yg bkin ky tersenyum kembali bila ijad ckp " syg ne kadang2 matang juak yah , ble pkir smpai gtu skali , law by nda tpikir pn , tp pa yg dak mnampak kn syg matang sbb syg ne manja bah " heee :)ijad ble ckp bgtu sbb td kn ky ckp ma ijad bah tuh , ky blg " kc kekal jak lh hbungn kta ne , law pn salu gaduh , kta tempuhi lh dugaan TUHAN dgn kuat dan tabah , syg maw blajar dlu bgs2 , pas sua dpt krja yg bgs , maw kc senang mamy dulu n for the end of my wish bru lh GETTING MARRIED wif u sayang ! :)" hee tu la yg ky ckp td sma ijad ,kamu taw kah , smua prempwan brharap suatu hari nt , LELAKI PUJAAN HATI nya akan menyarungkan cincin d jari nya then mencium dahinya , slepas akad nikah suda d lafaz kn cmne " aq trima nikahnya (example) NUR SYAKILLA SOFIE BINTI JOHAN dgn mas kawin ******** " hehe bgtu la apa yg ky arapkan lepas ky suda lpas bljr n dpt keja yg baik2 n sesuda kc senang idup my beloved mommy :'D hope so like that n i hope so IZAAZ RIFQI BIN MOSTIKA is my DESTINY one day soon .. amin ya ALLAH .. k lh ky ngntok da ne , besok keja pgy , tpksa bgn awal lh lae ne .. heheh babaah say gud nyte lh to MY BUCCUK IZAAZ RIFQI " gud nyte sayang , iloveyou n imissyou so much bebeh , syg sayang sma by sgt2 , jn nakal2 d sna yh , jn pena lupa syg , mimpy syg m, emmmmmmmuuuuaaaaah di dahi n d pipi :* bye sayang " bye uolz , jn jelez yah law ky bermanja nan my sayang .. heheh gedik k gedik , ky taw law kmu bca dlmn hati ckp cmtue kn ? eleh ,haha do i care ? ada ku kesah ? hahaah kbai bebehran blogger ~ ^_^

Its all about eu :)

Moning uolz :) , sometimes , bila ky dak dpt maw meluah nan rifqy or my BFF , pendam dlm hati sedja , tp bila da sakit ati sgt , better curhat d blogger rite ? Diz iz my wonderland , i can write , what i wanna writing . Btul ka,tuh ? Hahah whut eva .. Gne buhh ,honestly , i never like if my syg , layan ituh gurLz , seriously , im so jelez k jelez -_-' , , jeles tandanya SAYANG ka ? Hurmm dats true ,. But for my opinion , when i feel jelez , dats mean , rifqy really mean it for me , pham ka ? Susa bah maw d kc lepas , tkut bah ky ,law dya tlmpaw bnyak kwn prempwan . . Im so scared to lose u beby :'( plz undrstand me , but if u juz fren wif other people like that gurlz , its okey , nevermine .. Im fine ;3 .. Tapi msty taw juak , im warning u arh daling ,. Jan melebih-lebih .. IZAAZ RIFQI , nma yg ky slalu sebut bila ky sakit , . Kalaw ndk izaaz , my mommy , . Cenggine tuh besanya "ya Allah , sakitnya , mamy :'( , syg izaaz" .. Bila ky skt , ky akan sbut nma2 org2 yg plg ky syg , n memohon kpd Tuhan ,agar d kurangkan rasa sakit ituh :') .. Ky sukak bila izaaz rifqy pn prna jeles , nmpak btul yg dya SAYANG tauk , .ky igt tuh, tyme maw p ambil result spm d school , ijad warning me , he says "jgn pkay bju ketat2 , jn bgayak , bmakeup pn jgn , nt kena kacau lelaki len , jeles by" hehe suweettt nyerrr . Haha,;p n then kwn ky nda jd dtg , trus ky kol ijad tnya result , n btao dya kwn ndda dtg ne , then ijad jawab , "baaa , p tukar bju capat , nda pyah lh ke skulah" ;D msty K.A.M.U bingung ne kn ,wich one my bebeh .. Hee IZAAZ RIFQI , sometimes i kol him , ijad , rifqy , izaaz , daling , beby , bebeh , n my buccuk , owso my superman , haha banyak an nma Dya ^_^" .. Hurmm , last ky maw btao nan my bebeh IZAAZ RIFQI. Hope so by bCa my blogger nee ,. "Sayang , me syg u sgt2 , never wanna let u go beby . Plz be mine forever ,by sayang , syg ndk mtk papa dr by , syg cuma maw by SAYANG ngn syg ikhlas n jga hati syg , syg hrap by ble jaga syg , spajang hayat by, HINGGA HUJUNG NYAWA :') , dgr kata hati syg , by lh org yg syg cari slama neyh, n syg yakin by ble jga syg n bhagia kn hdup syg , even sometimes kta salu gaduh , law pun juz small metter rite ? Hurmm.but , law ta gaduh jap jak pn kn , fighting for tonite but tomorrow nda suda , bebaik da balik kn , mmg dugaan yg Tuhan bgy utk RELATIONSHIP kta sngt bnyk , kta harus tawakal n menempuhinya , bkn COUPLE la bah tuh law teda gaduh kn , dak smesty nya juak tiap ary maw hpy2 , msty ada SWEET & BITTER moment juak .yank , im so sorry law syg TELANJUR MENCINTAIMU , bcz dlu kta cuma abg ngn adik sedja kn , gara2 by carring btul ma syg , terSAYANG by , betul2 pulak ne .. Hee ~ syg besyukur dpt org cm by ne , resiously , by lg matured dr yg pernah syg kenal , by more better then all of my ex-BF u knoe , .sayang , plz promise me that u never leave me alone , i love u so much n i really mean it , plz trust me that i never wanna leave u anymore beby .. I hope so one day , we will leave together in one house wif new HAPPY FAMILY , amin~ emmuuuuuaaaaah :* sayang nan by sgt2 , ketat2 & bnyak kali k .. Hehe klah , im so tired da write diz post , bye sayang , i will wait for u to come back to TAWAU :)

ALHAMDULILLAH LULUS :')

Assalamualaikum smua , syukur alhamdulillah , ky lulus jgk , berakhir juak pnantian result dan ketakutan slama ini ,. Papa pn Tq smua yg suda doa kn ky ,. Berkat doa kmu smua , ky Dpt 6B 3D . Yg pntg lulus , law pn dakda dpt A' :'( , smua pemly n kwn2 ucap tahniah ,. Kwn2 ky smua ada dpt 8A , 7A , 3A , 2A n ada yg 1A ,. Ky btao rifqy bgtu , trus dya blg , 'tu lh sapa suru syg dak bljar , law ndk ada juak syg dpt A cm kwn2 tuh' , ky tediam n air mata automatik jatuh lagi :'( im sorry , ky suda blajar bersungguh-sungguh , tp pa ble bwt , thap kemampuan ky , asal2 lulus jak .. Mmg susa lh maw dpt A ,. Ituh jak yg ky mampu ,. Otak ky mmg bkn otak org genius yg pandai sgt .. N then pas rifqy ckp bgtu , dya ckp lae , "ndapalah yg penting sayang LULUS , kankankan ?" Ky jwb "emm" :') k lah , tuh jak yg ky maw sharring ary ne ,. Kbye~

Tomorrow never Die , our SPM Result will coming !!!

Assalammualaikum dan slmat sejahtra ,ky mc blum bole tetidur lh , gegara pkirkan sal keluar nya result spm bisuk , :/ bnyk btl pkiran ky ,tkut btl ky , Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yg Maha besar , mudah2han hamba2 mu yg akn mengambil result besok , smua nya alhamdulillah lulus dgn cmerLang , amin ~ ky dak maw kecewa kn mamy n smpai bwt mamy tmbh sedih law kputusan ky dak bgs , . Hope so baik2 sedja n lulus . Amin Ya Allah :'( ky merayu Ya Allah , berikan lh keputusan yg baik utk ky dan kwn2 ky .. Sbb spm ne lh pnentu kmana arah tuju kta maw pegy , sma ada ke jln yg benar ataw salah ,.. Ky maw capaikan keinginan mamy , mamy ky maw btl ky jadi NURSE , tp baru2 ne , tyme heboh crita sal penceroboh abu sayaf d LD tuh , tetiba plak mamy suh ky jd PULIS . Hha POLIS bah blg , mamy oh mamy ~ :'D mamy maw ky jd apa pn ky dak kisah ,yg pntg dpt bhagiakan mamy .. Ituh seja lh maw curhat bloggerlioushz , gudmornite my wonderland ~ bubye :)

Our relationship is 11 month oredy :)

Ckup 11 bln da ary ne , relay ky nan ijad .. Hrap2 bekekalan smpai bla2 .. Law pn slama ne kmi salu gaduh , tp ada seja something yg ble bwt kmi bebaik blk , ky bsyukur dpt org mcm ijad , law pn kadang2 kin pegal , tp sometimes dya bwt ky hpy n tersenyum juak , ky syg btl nan dya , pes tyme lh ne ky becouple lma btl , n serius btl ingga ke thap ini , besa nya yg sblum2 ne smua not matured , .arghh juz forget it .. Yg pntg skg bhagia ky wif my newlife , not sadlife anymore .. Hurmm , ky lma btl da nda on ne blogger , rndu plak maw story morry d schakiky wonderland ne .. Ouh yah , maw btao ne , uolz maw taw ka , pa something yg bwt ky fall in love dgn my daling ijad ne ? Haha , ky cair dgr swaranya , ky sukak idungnya mancung , ijad pena ckp , ky la frst girl yg brani cubit idungnya , hahah sapa suru mancung sgt , then ijad ne matang bah , memahami , ky ble taw dya punya gaya sbb , sblum kmi couple , ijad ne abg angkat ky kunun , dya lh org yg sntiasa than mendgr luahan hati ky , masa kmi lum kpel tuh , prnh gaduh jgk kmi smpai nda btegur sbb ky tyme broken heart dulu , ky mw bwt bnda yg bkn2 n membahayakan nyawa ky sndri , agak gila kn ? . Hha lucu , sedih n hpy juak law d flash back blk dulu2 punya kisah tuh , bah pnat da ky menaip ne , k la , gud nyte eu .. :)